A story.

So no this doesn't have anything to do with Lip Smackers. I'm thinking on adding some new stuff on here. Anyway I promised my friends this short story. I call it 'I Almost Got Away'


TJ picked up the phone to dial. The number lit up with a eerie glow. Each one had its one little light of lime green. TJ tried to calm his heart by entrancing himself with their glow. Maybe the longer he'd wait, the less his heart would stop beating so hard. "What if he doesn't remember me? What if he starts crying? What if he yells at me?" TJ thought to himself. He wanted to stop the cries in his head. All the pain he'd been through was healing and now this. He thought Jeremy had gone away. He thought Jeremy was so angry that he was done. TJ knew he was absolutely wrong.

"What if his mom is mad at me?" TJ's stomach churned. He lit another cigarette to puff on. Instantly Jeremy's voice came to his head, "are you smoking?" He used to ask. Somehow even over the phone that boy always knew. He always knew when his man was smoking. "What if....he really has moved on? What if he really does just want to talk as a friend?" TJ's body shook. Quickly he put out the cigarette and ran to the restroom. Of coarse it would be the day that he ate spaghetti and meatballs that this would happen.....

After emptying his stomach he returned to the phone. The time read 1:53 am. "Will he even be awake? What if he doesn't answer? All this will be for nothing" TJ said to himself. A noise in the living room scared him. He knew in an instant they had found out his plan. Ever since this all happened they monitored the phone more carefully. Making sure the "threat" of Jeremy was gone. Anger, fear, sadness....TJ wanted to snap. He wanted to yell and scream and hit things. How could one little floorboard evoke so much anger in such a young person. It was like a timebomb that had set off. TJ waited to hear his mother scream at him. Waiting for her to burst into his room again and scream, "your calling that faggot again aren't you?" But nothing happened. No one was in the living room but the cats. TJ looked at the time again. 2:15 am. Had that much time gone by of him just thinking?

TJ wasn't a very religious person. Only Jeremy made him believe in something. TJ decided if he was going to pray that it had to be quick. "Do I say it out loud? Do I say it in my head?" He wondered. He felt the best way would be to look to the sky outside his window. Where he imagined God was. TJ slide open the window just enough to peek out of. The sky was like a huge sheet with glittery stars. Something Jeremy would have enjoyed.

"Hey God....its TJ. Uhm......uuuuhhm" he started. Before anything else left his mouth TJ began to cry. "Why can't I be me? Why can't they just understand who I am? Why do I ask so many questions God? I'm supposed to be your child, I'm supposed to be her child. She doesn't love me for who I am. They don't want me to be who I am. I'm suffering God.....your child is suffering. If I had never met him I'd never have to deal with this. I would have never fallen in love with him. I'd never have.....I did didn't I? I broke his heart and acted like I didn't care. I do! You know I do! But he said such nasty things about me and.....its because I hurt him. I know he doesn't have issues God. He was angry at me and I tried to ignore it. Does he hate me? Does he even....does he even remember me? Have I ruined it all? I know I used to tell him we'd be together forever and for always. He probably doesn't believe me anymore.....God? I love him. I still love him."

TJ looked at the clock once more. It was almost 2:30 on the nose. Within a blink of an eye his fingers dialed the number. A number he hadn't dialed in over two whole months. A number he used to call everynight. Something he loved to do at the end of his day. The receiver wasn't close to his ear but still the buzz could be heard. One ring...two rings....TJ felt like hanging up. But something....someone stopped him.

"Hello?" He answered the other line. "H-h-hi its TJ"

........"Hi. What's up?" Jeremy tried to play it cool. Even though the tears were steaming in his eyes. "Not much. H-how are you?" TJ asked. "I'm fine just sitting here in my room" Jeremy responded. A long silence kept the two from saying a word. "I uhm....I need to tell you I don't hate you" TJ started out. Not exactly what he wanted to say but it was a start. "I know you don't" Jeremy replied.

"But I can't....I love you. I'll never stop. I'm sorry this happened. This is the biggest mistake I made. Not anything else. Not someone else. Hurting you was the biggest mistake I could have and will ever make" TJ confessed. "I know were young and we have years ahead of us. And I thought I could handle leaving our time behind me. But just two months has felt like years. Its felt like a million dark years."

"Will you do it again? Will you hurt me again?" Jeremy asked. "If you truly love me then yes. We love each other so much we'll probably disappoint each other a lot. But if there's one thing that I can say its I can't not love you" TJ cried. There it was done. He'd said all that he could possibly say.

"Do you want to get back together?" Jeremy asked. "I don't know. I know I don't want you to find someone new. To forget me and love someone more than me" TJ said sadly. "Well do you love anyone more than me? Do you love her more than me?" Jeremy questioned.

"No I..."
"TJ are you lying? I'm scared....help me. I'm scared"
"Stop it babe. Please just don't cry okay? I haven't got long"
"Why? Are you going to hang up and leave me again?"
"No! I'm not leaving you. What...what does your heart tell you?"
"I don't know. I can't hear it anymore."
"What is it telling you?"
"That you never left me. Your here but your not. You wanted me to leave you and that maybe you'd get over me. You love me."
"I do. No matter what I say or do I love you. If I ever make another mistake remember that I'm not leaving you."

"I've got to go. They'll find me and they won't like us talking. I can't tell you what they've said." TJ whispered. He heard footsteps in the room next to his. "Before you go....when will I hear you again? Don't let me lay here forever and wait" Jeremy begged. "I'll write you a letter. I'll call you somehow. I'll....I'll do something. I swear" TJ sobbed. The footsteps got closer and closer to his room. He hung up without even another word. His door opened and a light shown in......

_________

TJ awoke in his bed. It took several seconds before he knew what was going on. It was all a nightmare he'd been dreaming. A nightmare that had haunted him for almost 20 years. TJ wrapped his arm around Jeremy and hugged him close. "Get up babe. Babe get up" he whispered. "Wh-what? Its three in the morning. What's a matter?" Jeremy said still in a daze. TJ pulled his husband closer to his chest. "Just please come with me? Please?" He begged. Jeremy couldn't resist those hazel eyes that had stolen him so many times. "Do I have to get dressed?" Jeremy asked with a smile.

Soon the two were out of bed and outside in the night. "What are we....." Jeremy started. TJ held his hand to his lips, "shhhhh babe." They walked up and down the streets TJ grew up on. The same small town with the same small houses. Every step was a memory of something. If it was good or bad, it was still a memory. "I'm so grateful" TJ finally spoke up. "Twenty years ago I was afraid of this. The thought of being with you made me so happy but so scared. Almost everyone was against us" TJ wiped a tear from his eye. A pain he thought he buried was still there at times. But now it could easily go away. "I've never asked you this before" Jeremy said calmly. "Did you make the right decision? Do you feel you would have been happier without me?" He asked.

TJ looked to the sky and then into his lover's eyes. "I did. And I wouldn't have been happy at all." TJ went to kiss his beloved on the lips. "Wait..." Jeremy instructed him. He pulled out a small lip gloss that he'd worn many times before. Jeremy smoothed it on his lips. TJ pulled him in for a long kiss, "have I ever disappointed you?"

"No. Have I ever disappointed you?"
"Not once."

Lollipop lip smacker

Lollipop is another new addition to the Lip Smacker line. It comes packaged with a magenta nail polish. The theme I believe is supposed to be a circus. Anyway Lollipop has a very odd taste that does remind me of a cherry sucker. Its a sweet smell indeed! The balm even resembles a see through lollipop.

The label to this one is a see through sticker. It has a light starburst design in pinks and oranges. The word 'Lollipop' is hardly even visible due to the color clashes. Overall it is a very tasty new member of the Smacker family.

Ariel's Calypso Berry lip smacker.

The beginning of 2012 has brought us a new Bonne Bell collaboration! Disney Princesses!

This smacker is the infamous main character of 'The Little Mermaid', Ariel. Her flavor is Calypso Berry which is basically a mixed berry flavor. Interestingly enough the best part of this smacker is the label. Every Disney Princess smacker label has great detail to it.

The label for Calypso Berry is of coarse Ariel. She her signature stunning red hair surrounded by seaweed, flowers and a few bubbles. The metallic background is adorned with starfish and is a lavender color.

Cake Batter ice creamies.

I found this retired smacker in a set at a local drug store. It'd been there so long it was dusty and 75%off! I ended up paying $2.50 for it.

Cake Batter is a long tube full of flavor. It tastes just like it's named. The ultra cool thing is the liquid is thick and cream colored. It gives off the look of the actual thing! The label has the old block 'Smackers' logo with two ice creams on each side. The tube is clear so you can see the yummy liquid.

Ice Cream Cake lip smacker.

Happy 2012 everyone! Along with a new year comes new Lip Smackers. This one is apart of the Originals series. It is called Ice Cream Cake and taste just like that. It has a strong vanilla cake batter smell. The balm is even a creamy color to match. I half expect to feel the cold sensation of ice cream on my lips :*

the label is a cream color with dark pink lettering. There is a multicolor band around the bottom. You can find this Smacker and even more new stuff at Super Walmart!